the one before the one

i realize that's what i am.

the one before the one.

the one who dates guys,
teaches them these useful life lessons,
and eventually prepares them for the One,
who, 99% of the time, they meet after we stop dating.

gaaaak.

comfortable

he's on my mind.
all the time.

he's all i ever think of...

... except when i am

* pirating people
* waiting to get on the MRT
* squashed among vicious women on board the MRT
* answering emails from internal clients
* knitting
* napping
* reading historic fiction
* surfing the web for cheap airfare to europe
* looking for U2's next concert in asia
* skyping with people from scotland, london, taiwan, and new york
* tinkering with my new shredder
* eating potato chips
* painting my toenails
* buying pirated DVDs
* watching my white trash reality shows
* flat-hunting
* updating my iPod
* dreaming of getting into my lucky blue bikini again
* contemplating a career change
* enjoying my coffee
* eating ice cream
* writing my thoughts in my journal
* contemplating my flabby and jiggly bits
* walking to the bus station
* wishing for my hair to grow faster
* enjoying my red leather bag
* dreaming of anilao
* putting on my earrings
* doing overtime work
* shopping for shoes.

always.